From my meditation and sutta study, all I learned that was there is nothing to gain. If I seek to improve kamma, or attain nibanna..it would just be emptiness.
But also, I know, I came to the dhamma, because of being involved with a person, who burned me with the fires of infinite lifetimes in hells, to use me to get to her personal goals.Sort of like, a woman who is 'holocaustic' toward getting what she wanted no matter what is the collateral damage or how many people were made to suffer for her wishes. So even now religiously, I have aversion when it comes to anyone wanting to get anything..even myself with the idea of trying to attain Nibbana..it seems like a sickness, that anyone would want to gain anything from the dhamma. I know..it's AVERSION that I have.
Like Ajahn Sumedho said...let's not take it personally...Sakkāya-ditthi. I am full of that! But you don't have to be!
Some say, just watch the breath, enjoy the opportunity to be breathing, and forget about esoteric things like kamma or nibbana.