hi i have a question about how to apologize if you have been a great bad action, my bad action i have to confess is to being antisocial (ignoring, avoiding, and refuse to talk with my classromm mates), i have no friends in my classroom, it can be rare and strange maybe because it is not in the texts but for me causes guilt and despair, and i have been in this situation for many years, so sincerely im in a deep problem because for me is not to be a good person in my comunity, so my question is how do one apologize to people who ignore you and now you want to talk to them and change positively for the welfare of myself and of others?, is it have to do at public, person by person? i need to resolve this problem with urgency that is making myself very unhappy and anxious.
Other thing what paramitas and what do you recommend me to practice, i was practicing metta, khanti, dana, tolerance, and thats it, and a sort of virtue at talking some times, and one day it brought me great joy and a great smile
, but thats it, but now im comfused, what paramitas are to be practiced first?
sorry for my faults
thank you very much, may you be well and happy with a great smile
I think karma is the first topic we should understand before starting in meditation.