silver surfer wrote:Thank you all, for all the stuff you've provided.
Actually, the thing I'm having trouble understanding is; the being that is born = is it the me of right now, or someone/something else. In meditation I focus on my breath, and try to put a distance between my current (momentary) mind and my heart. So what's breathing = is this the thing that is constantly being born? I guess this was my question. I can't say that I fully get it, as I have no idea about my past lives, yet. It's just blank and I don't know anything. I'm trying know, or recollect. But nothing, I really don't know what I am, nor where I came from (yet).
If you read my introductory post, I explain, in my very first post here on site, just how basic, ignorant and simple-minded my practice is.
I am not well-versed in the Dhamma, so cannot give accurate quotations or references.
But this I know:
There is absolutely NO POINT whatsoever, in any way shape or form, in being concerned about what was, who/what you were, what effect it's having or why you are as you are.
You are as you are, because it is what it is.
You are just as able to make a mess of your life now, as it is possible you did in the past.
The Past, you can neither know, or change (with regard to 'previous existences').
All you can do, is to focus on what you are doing here, now, today, and be the best 'silver surfer' you can be.
That truly is what matters.
it's ALL that matters.
Forget trying to work out what kammic events brought you here.
They are not relevant.
Continually trying to fathom them, remember them, work them out - it's completely pointless - as you have discovered!!
so leave it be.
Concentrate on what is before you, now.
By the way;
I guess you got me wrong,
I would think such a person could not possibly exist. A person cannot honestly and compassionately manifest such virtues AND simultaneously think the way you describe. Such a life would be a sham, a pretense. It can't be done.
By horrific thoughts, I meant fear and anxiety. Not bad intentions for others. The person I described is wholly good in the heart, but living a bad life because of his conditions. There is also hatred in him, hatred as in, for example ~ hate for animal hunters, because he loves animals so much and feels the utmost compassion for them, but he lacks the power to stop the evil, so he can't find peace. I can't understand how this kind of a craving is bad, it originates out of compassion/empathy. I'm sure you understand what I mean. So what can you say? What kind of a kamma would this person cause?
good, caring, compassionate, moral, almost egoless.
What his conditions give him;
stress, doubt, hatred, fear and despair.
You need to cultivate an understanding of the 4 Brahma~Viharas:
This is an interesting entry:http://www.dhammawiki.com/index.php?tit ... ma_Viharas
And also, access to Insight will have much beneficial information.
A person cannot practise sincere Compassion if they have hatred, resentment and animosity in their heart; but the first person you need to go easy on - is you.
We cannot save the world all at once; but by our actions can we be known.
People who wish to change the world, should start with a small garden; a famous 17th Century prayer goes:
"Oh Lord, change the world; begin I pray thee, with me."
Whether we can indeed make a huge difference in our lifetime, is an unknown, but a man walking along a beach, observed a woman picking up stranded starfish, and hurling them back into the ocean. There were thousands, littering the seashore....
he advised her that the work was too much; there were too many of them for her to make any difference.
She hurled another one far out into the waves, and replied, cheerfully:
"Well it made a difference to THAT one!"
Don't burden yourself with the grief of the world; look to yourself, your immediate surroundings, community, family and neighbours, and begin there.
One step at a time, just one....