Thank you for posting this. I have had a serious disease and faced death. That disease has a possibility of recurrence so about once a year I am retested. With each test I face my mortality and fear of death. With each test my fear of death lessens. I hope over the next years my health situation will further assist me in my understanding of dukkha, rebirth and the rest of the dhamma.
So sorry to hear about your situation. This test all of us will face sooner or later.
Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl chronicles his experiences as a concentration camp inmate
“An active life serves the purpose of giving man the opportunity to realize values in creative work, while a passive life affords him the opportunity to obtain fulfillment in experiencing beauty, art, or nature.But there is also purpose in that life which is almost barren of both creation and enjoyment
and which admits of but one possibility of high moral behavior: namely, in man’s attitude to his existence
, an existence restricted by external forces.
A creative life and a life of enjoyment are banned to him.
But not only creativeness and enjoyment are meaningful.
If there is a meaning in life at all, then there must be a meaning in suffering.
Suffering is an ineradicable part of life, even as fate and death.
Without suffering and death human life cannot be complete.”
"We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way
.""Between stimulus and response, there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom."
"Live as if you were living already for the second time and as if you had acted the first time as wrongly as you are about to act now!"
"We can discover this meaning in life in three different ways: (1) by creating a work or doing a deed; (2) by experiencing a something or encountering someone; and (3) by the attitude we take toward unavoidable suffering."
"Man does not simply exist but always decides what his existence will be, what he will become in the next moment."
"When we are no longer able to change a situation - just think of an incurable disease such as inoperable cancer - we are challenged to change ourselves
And what is right speech? Abstaining from lying, from divisive speech, from abusive speech, & from idle chatter: This is called right speech.