Sobeh wrote:Saying goodbye to friends and family is definitely a LOT harder than I had expected at even my most pessimistic, a few months ago. I can identify now with the part of the Buddha's life where he felt a sense that, on leaving his home, if he was to wake his wife and child up he knew he wouldn't be able to leave. That whole moment is charged in a way it never was before, now that I am doing something similar.
There is a story in life of Ven. Dhammavudho that he had a girlfriend before becoming a monk. He leaved her alone and went to the monkhood, in later time, he was informed that his ex-girlfriend was pretty angry with him.
I'm also in that situation, it is very hard. After I finish my business and academics, I'll go to ordination too.