Thanks for welcoming me to the forum PeterB, it's appreciated. I don't know what to do with a "clue" and my manner of trusting things I don't understand has included, first, suffering as a manner of discerning as I feel there is a vast problem in the variance of manners of how people of good fortune speak and I've refused to learn such norm of communication as a manner of skillfulness and have reserved my right to be caring. My understanding is, honesty being the best policy, includes that bettering what I've developed, cultivated and evolved, is required, or deal with it, just to explain or if you were asking for a clue in some sense? I don't know if that explains anything or if that's what your asking but to explain, the manner in which I sought understanding became apparent that I had to aggressively choose suffering when just a little was in-sighted upon me, in order to heal, for example. Not well explained while I hope it's pertinent maybe just an unclear example of crazy wisdom.
porpoise, thanks for making contact. What I'm hoping to do is communicate that there are probably a number of people alive, that have been effected by the wbo, who are still unjustly suffering and it doesn't make sense to me that the, now, TBC hasn't publicly apologized and offered to amend the problems that individual human beings might still be experiencing.
Literally, based on my experience in consideration of how I'm still effected, still Christian oriented beings that represent the ancestry of TBC members, generally pertaining to some of the senior teachers (as I recognize them as some beings arrive in the image of particular TBC members), that had so cruelly influenced my life, arrive in my body and indirectly extend to human conscious some how, so to speak, what represents that opposite of who I am, to a lesser degree now then before, creating circumstances that result in my body being treated like a punching bag and in particular my right brain and it's excessively wrong and a problem.
Which poses the issue, concerning the story of my odyssey and honesty being the best policy, for me anyway, why are being's in the image of some senior TBC members who are supposed to be Buddhist, arriving in my body and forwarding a Christian agenda. Also pertinent, as the story of my odyssey goes, S., a historically, very intrenched Catholic being made agreements and obligations, in reference to the story of my odyssey, before he was born, to be guided to found a Buddhist linage so Jesus could have a controlling influence over Buddhism for His and Christian purposes and for His second coming which, as the story of my odyssey goes and honesty being the best policy, will allow Him some liberty to enact his will unto Buddhism during the course of his next human life, if He gains one, or something like that (general skillful vagueness considered).
I feel as though I have to share that so qualified Buddhist monks can discern the truth of it and respond for the benefit of all beings. And it feels that what I'm sharing needs to be addressed soon and I don't feel qualified to do it alone and I'm asking for help with such issues.
There are some very detailed things I understand about what I'm mentioning and literally, S. will be taken care of for a time, as I understand, in the afterlife, while it's just for a time based on how he cooperates in the afterlife, and it's my understanding that there is a very safe place for him to cooperate within and it's more of a global consideration in consideration of what I don't know how to rightly share presently. The best I can explain is that, as I understand in reference to the story of my odyssey, Christian oriented non-physical beings are hoping to effect something to the effect of all human life for the Church and Crown and as has been occurring, for example, as has occurred already, by colonization and neo-liberalism and to me it seems to be causing a lot of problems right now.
I don't know how to handle such information alone while it feels as if I'm not to be excluded for how things are considered and I'd appreciate some human help, not just knowing help and I feel it, and help with guidance and in particular from Buddhist monks that aren't affiliated with the TBC and including Christian monks, Muslim even as it's a global belief system of the non-physical realms that has resulted. I've sought help, at one point during a retreat, a Buddhist monk responded with one word, evolution and it feels to be the case in terms of the magnitude of what I'm dealing with.
Sorry if it's not positive enough, I'm not skilled with words in a way where I know how to express such things in a positive manner. So by mentioning what I understand clearly, truthfully and honestly, my intention includes that the issues can be rightly righted and I hope that's positive enough. My hope is to bring light to the issues so as to heal them rightly with the help of other people.
In my opinion the TBC should publicly apologize and ask that an appropriate non-TBC support environment be created for people whose lives have been wrongly influenced, in my innocent opinion. Of which includes a lot more information as to why it's considered blatantly wrong what the wbo was doing and the TBC possibly still is doing.
Something I forgot to mention concerning what seems to me to be investigations by other people concerning my history and origins. It was about 2 months ago that the investigations, that I've slowly become aware of, revealed that I'm of Islamic martyrdom origins. I've generally avoided such seeing such information as I don't know that it's skillful? And I'm not familiar with the Middle Eastern cultures and/or religions aside from afar. What's interesting is that I seem to have journeyed from one manner of human kindness to another, my most recent life before this one having been Native Indian.
Something I'm hoping to understand better is, if I have truly lived an Odyssey, what is the value and effect in it? How might I skillfully share the story of something to that effect? And, in that I'd feel safer if I could gain a small audience amongst some wise, knowing teachers and not just Buddhist teachers, which is in part my intention here. As to me, the truth of the story of the odyssey, as so many being(')s have participated from the standpoint of globally, that it seems necessary that people come to know the story if not just that Creation on Earth is endangered and in hopes of insighting global healing. As for awhile there it seemed as though I was being forced to tell it to people I didn't trust in that they tended to be strangers. Including that I had begun writing about it and I was sorta guided away from that based on the extent of my innocence and now I'm being gently guided, as it feels, to seek a diverse audience amongst wise, trusted, knowing spiritual teachers of different religious view.
As my first question during the course of my odyssey, and honestly I don't feel as though it's just my odyssey based on beings who've participated in representation of living human beings, as the story goes, when the position for me to ask one arose, in the presence of many being(')s, about 4.5 years ago, I asked, "what is the reality of climate change"? And what has been revealed to me isn't very pretty, and I'd very much like to share with qualified people who can help respond to what I understand in hope of what is the best for the benefit of all beings in reference to human life and Creation on Earth? That is, to ask what seems like a good question for many people, is, is Creation on Earth is worthwhile trying to save?