mikenz66 wrote:Here's some material on kasina meditation (and other objects...):
http://www.yellowrobe.com/practice/medi ... ation.html
http://www.dhammawiki.com/index.php?tit ... n._Mettiko
http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/auth ... el351.html
http://www.dhammaweb.net/paauk/Book/kno ... rv2003.pdf
With metta and much appreciation, thank you.
Goofaholix wrote:You still have to breath no matter what object you choose, do you not? So presumably the problem is that once you place your attention on the breath it becomes unnatural, this is a problem of the mind not the breath so it's worth exploring.
There are too many problems wrapped up in my breath. Most days, it's not a smooth or gentle object to follow like it is for everyone else. I'd rather just leave it alone, let it happen naturally, and focus on something else. Like I explained before, I don't believe the Buddha outlined 40 objects of contemplation for nothing. He wouldn't have given all those talks if he didn't feel they would benefit someone. He likely knew there were people like myself who would be able to make better progress with another object.
I think it's worth exploring why your respiratory problems are worse when you give attention to them, you may find by doing so you learn to let go of your resistance to it and relax around it and gain some freedom from it.
They don't necessarily worsen when I bring them to my attention. Bringing them to my attention only reminds me of how bad they are. It's kind of like my neighbors when they're playing obnoxious music downstairs. When I'm quiet and listening for it, I can hear it, and it bothers me. But if I'm busy working on a project for a client, and their music isn't the center of my attention, I'm able to look past it, and get my work done. Sure, I could learn how to look through my issues, but why should I? Why should I make my practice more difficult when I could simply focus on something else?
Vepacitta wrote:Far better that he can establish another type of meditation practise for now. So he can y'know ... practice.