How can you ever know that what is written down was the actual experience of the Buddha?
Yeah but like I said earlier, I will never be able to proof this to you. Because even if I referred my writings to the buddhist texts, you will conclude it are only my interpretations. Just like you have your interpretations of the texts. How can you ever be sure that your interpretations are correct?I am not questioning the personal truth of your personal experience. I was merely questioning your claims that your experiences are those described in the Buddhist texts, as you claimed.
If one debates a teaching, he has interpreted the teaching wrong, or the teaching is wrong. If he has the right interpretation and the teaching is right, there is no need for debating, as one will experience it.
Insight goes one-way, so the trueness of the teaching will proof itself in your experience. I will try to explain this with an example. Let's say that what I wrote does not lead to the same Nirvana as mentioned in the Buddhist texts. Then either my writings are true, or the Buddhist texts are true. How can we then figure out which one is true?
That is what I am trying to tell you, one can use information from different sources. You can use information from my texts and compare them with buddhist texts and see if they help you in your progress. I used information from many different Buddhist streams. I know it doesn't matter, as the path proved to be true.For example, you wrote lots of things about sense experience, preferences, favouring & opposing, craving, expectation, ego, etc, and how these create suffering & dissatisfaction; which sound similar to many texts. I found these explanations very impressive & useful. But you didn't cite these texts nor did you reconcile your ideas about Dependent Origination with the suttas. In fact, often your TNH ideas about Dependent Origination were Mahayana & not related to what the Pali suttas appear to teach about Dependent Origination.
One can also stick to one source or vehicle, but if your struggling to understand the teachings, it may help to look further. I am not trying to convince anyone here, everybody should do what they please.
I get the sense that you are scared that if you read something else than the sutta's, which you hold dear, you might stray from the path. However, the path is in your experience and not in the texts.
What you can do is compare my writings, or any other writing, to the sutta's and see if they help you in understanding them. I don't need this, so I am not going to do this for you.
Oh but there is nothing I did by myself. I have every experience I ever had to thank for where I am today. Without the teachings in the texts I have read and the video's I watched, I would never have come this far. But this is not exclusive to the sutta's, even more so, I learned most from the explanations from others. But without the sutta's, these explanations would not be there.See. Now you seem to have ceased to be a Buddhist altogether because you cannot reconcile your experience with the suttas. The above appears to demonstrate a lack of faith in the Triple Gem. The suttas say the Dhamma is verified by each introspective person individually. You appeared to claim you are an Arahant (but without conviction in the suttas) yet in the texts merely a Stream-Enterer has absolutely certainty the (verifiable) suttas are true. This is starting to sounds like plagiarists such as Krishnamurti, who was taught all different religions, who repackaged those religious teachings but claimed the religions themselves to be false. Often the mind can have experiences in meditation but often knowledge of the teachings is influencing or bending the mind see in that enlightened manner. Thus, I think we should try to have gratitude for the teachings when appropriate rather than make claims we did it all ourselves.