Basically, those are simply thoughts which seems perfectly okay in that particular moment. For example, I am dealing with porn addiction and I've made a firm decision to stop watching porn and stop masturbating. That was a year ago...rationalized, rationalizing - to ascribe (one's acts, opinions, etc.) to causes that superficially seem reasonable and valid but that actually are unrelated to the true, possibly unconscious and often less creditable or agreeable causes.
I had a couple of good NoFap "streaks" and I've even managed to go one month without it, but eventually, I came back to it.
It's always the same, I do not relapse because of biological need, I do it because of the fact that I can't be mindful of my thoughts when experiencing an urge. Mostly, those urges has nothing to do with my penis, it's all in the head.
I've already tried mindfulness meditation, but it simply doesn't work in that particular moments. It has a opposite effect. By being mindful of my thought I feed this urge even more, until it gains complete control over me and there is no going back.
My common rationalizations are:
I'll start tomorrow
It's been a hard day..
I'll do it just once and continue like it didn't happen
I'll do it without porn...
And so on on and so on....
Those thoughts are so powerful and I don't know how to stop following and acting on them.
A little background, I am meditating for nearly a year. Siting twice a day for a hour a day on average. I am practicing Vipassana meditation and I've learned in the past that my thoughts are simply visitors, they doesn't mean anything. They come and they come.
But, the problem arises when we give them power....
I am open for any kind of tips